Why the Trauma happened…no seriously.
I was asked by my doc to write a one page paper, a paper on why “The Trauma Happened” well there was never one particular traumatic event, there was many, and trying to rack my brain as to find a sensible reason as to why I saw my friends bleed out, or why I feel the trauma of carrying two body bags with one human body’s remains taking up both bags, happened. Why did Sgt. Alhquist die? Well that’s a chain reaction question in the sense of getting to the root cause of “the” trauma, why did sgt. Alhquist die? Sgt. Alhquist died because he stepped on a pressure plate I.E.D. why did he step on the IED? He stepped on the IED to save the life of Lance Corporal Hadden, why was he trying to save Lance Corporal Hadden’s life? He was trying to save Lance Corporal Hadden’s life because Lance Corporal Hadden was shot in the shoulder. Well that poses another question if we are truly trying to figure out why “the” trauma happened. Why did Lcpl. Hadden get shot in the shoulder? Because a unidentified individual shot at him. Why did he shoot at Lcpl Hadden? He probably shot at him because A. We invaded his country…B. He has a undying hatred for America and everything it stands for or C. he was forced to by a terrorist organization with threat of losing his life and/or the life of his family and loved ones. So let’s answer these questions:
Option A. We invaded his country because the media and the government tells us that they are responsible for the attacks on 9/11, and while Iraq did not attack us, nor did they provoke us, or take blame or responsibility for the attacks on 9/11 our own government needed a scapegoat, something the naïve American people would believe, lets blame Bin Laden, and while we’re at it lets start a war about something totally opposite of the truth and lets overthrow Saddam and find all of his WMDs, of course Oil has nothing to do with it.
Option B. Undying hatred for America and everything America stands for, sure there is a lot of people who disagree with the American way of life, our so called “freedom” our so called “rights” that to them may seem out of this world and too strange and alien of an idea to want to adopt themselves, seeing how they are in fact decades behind America, and many other parts of the world in a cultural aspect. So it’d be safe to say that “they” may have killed my friends in fear of what they didn’t understand or didn’t want to accept.
Then theres Option C. He was forced to kill my friend(s), I encountered many men and women that told the story of “being forced to take [pop shots] at random at US forces in threat of losing their own life or the lives of their loved ones would be taken away. Many people will go to any and all extents of human possibilities to save the lives of those they care about.
So in conclusion I don’t know why the trauma happened, I don’t know now, and I never will. I feel betrayed, I feel lied to, I feel sad for those who had to die for stupid bullshit that no one has been given a clear explanation or answer to, and I hate the fact that most people, including myself enlisted after 9/11 because I felt attacked, what I didn’t know then, and what I don’t 100% know now, is just who was my country “attacked” by, was it a foreign terrorist organization, or is it an organization apart of our lives every single day? I’ll never know.
